There’s about 4 of them, 4 shitty arse memory’s in flick picture format that jump into my head and won’t leave no matter what I try.
The worst memory’s I have, the imagery of them is so sickening that it’s like reliving the moment over and over and over, I can remember it all in such finely detail, it’s horrific.
The confused stare that peered straight through any physical realm, I remember being stood at the end of the bed, I don’t know if it is reality or my imagination filling in the blocks for a good few milliseconds of my memory, it’s like it never happened yet it’s as if it won’t stop, over and over, always there in the back of my mind, something in the corner of my eye waiting to serve as a horrible reminder.
It puts everything else into perspective.
None of you will ever know.
constantly torn between “if it’s meant to be, it will be” and “if you want it, go get it”
Feel like I’m just melting under this stress, need to have a home, it makes everything so much easier..
Do you ever get jealous of someone who interacts really well with a really close friend of yours, not because you have a crush on your friend or anything but because you’re jealous of how much you pale in comparison to them when you see how much of a better friend they are to the one you’re close to?
This reality is such a slimey piece of bullshit, so don’t know why i continue to put up with its bullshit, what bullshit lesson am I supposed to learn from all this bullshit that’s happening, it’s guess what… BULLSHIT.
Need to get away from all of this shit, I’m loosing it.
After watching Pandoras Promise it’s kinda changed the way I feel about nuclear power, I’m scared of that, but then again, everyone is terrified of nuclear power yet 50% have no idea about any of it…
Think people should give it a watch, not to say that it’s right and everyone else is wrong but just gives a new perspective on it..